I believed I could change a situation by worrying about it. If I thought hard enough about something that was happening then I could force a change to that situation even though I was not directly involved. For me the thinking about it and wanting something to happen without actually doing anything felt like doing something for me. The thinking about it gave me anxiety, caused me to think about various worst case scenarios. The visualizations wore me down to the point that I actually believed I had done something.
You see I have come to believe that I can only do what I can do in situations that involve me in life. I have come to believe I am only responsible for my own actions. I can only do what I can do in certain life situations and worrying about actions past that point makes no sense because everything that will happen next is not up to me. I just have to focus on doing the best I can in life situations, keep working towards my goals and leaving the rest to the universe to decide my fate.
This isn’t absolving me of all responsibilities in life its actually freeing me from the anxieties of worrying, freeing me from the temptations of what ifs and allowing me to dive into what’s possible right now. Allowing me to be present in my life and do the best I can.
I believe this is the best option for me right now because for me its all about taking action! Regardless of the consequences.